Settled State

The frantic brush stroke life suits us.

Splattered across canvases and inelegantly scattered.

Toying with the task of connecting disparate strings,

the cluttered becomes ever more so massacred,

untraceable to the eye clothed or rendered naked.

Perfectly exposed is a tendency to decompose.


Palette of unrelated colors mingling,

as we’re extracting from the essence of together’s definition.

Characteristically do I tremble in undertows

birthed from decisions made when caution lashes out.

Desperate to feel and it only breeds haste.

Unconscious by the harmful blows I dealt to myself.


She carries on her father’s habit of disappearing.

He burdens up with a mother’s quieted interior.


Packed bottles line up the living room.

Speak too loudly and the glass might just crack.

Tensions ripple across the statuesque face of youth,

captured in wrinkles and proof of the aging accelerated beyond its date.


Exhausted from counting the loose ends untied;

the brush strokes magnified,

would the painter split the brush in half?

In realizing the pitfalls dotted in as if by design,

yet never knowing the difference between fate and choice,

a sword would cleave straight through,

split into two and the wholes would be bent to whole again

without a common mark to trace to conclusion.


We adopted a habit of backing down from the fights;

from hiding away into a night,

speaking softly to not wake the problems up,

and in fright do we see how in our dreams

they’ve multiplied sky-high to tower over domains.


No white picket fence,

no two-story home,

no place on this earth where our hells are at rest.

No absolute find,

no storybook end,

no resolution where we share the same bed.


Buried below,

concealed so long,

we come to find what we pushed quickly aside.


All the dilemmas that were used at the start

to raise us from the ground and back to:

We are as the same as what we faced

but were too stuck on breathing to notice.


She adopts her father’s habit and vanishes.

He lives his mother’s life and dives into silence.

~

(Mitch ❤ )

Bringing a Gun to a Missile Fight

Details, details;

the chasmic microscopic I’ve seen you lost into.

Travel maps with knife lines

haphazardly making the outline of escape plans.

Embedded in the flesh or mind or otherwise,

the hypotheticals never exit fantasy realms.


I’ll improvise as I go through all of the lies,

no different than the times I covered for each disguise.

Which mask I face today is a Russian roulette game.

Spin the bottle with the melodrama and cross fingers.


The temperature of the room bends at your beck and call.

Rise it or lower it to set preferred benchmarks.

Somewhere above or below am I rocketing to nowheres,

far below or above where a shifting standard sits.


Too close and too far away leaves rope burns to adorn us,

for here it is are we tethered to nebulous experimentation:

Of what could be when the incompatible is forced to compatible,

ignoring the volatility of conflicting atomic structures.


If nothing else at all can be said,

the trading of elements had a certain thrill;

wondering if those eyes will sink me or open up an ocean

and along I swim in search of imaginary lighthouses.

Maybe the rudder was shattered at the starting line

with a fire set in the engine before any motion began.


Yet if I am being honest with myself;

douse the carpet in gasoline and let loose the match.

Close the hatch to ensure I’ll engulf the particles completely.

When my mouth relents to speak it will enshroud us in flames,

glorifying the hideously beautiful entanglement of viruses.


Yet if I am being honest with myself;

the aching bones of desire feed a starving appetite.

Blemishes are makeup to embellish the pointless unkempt.

Tearing out every strand of hair only to feel a thought;

that if you’d do this to me, it has to mean you love me.

That if you’d want to maim me, it must mean that you care.

If you’d let me wilt away in a blaze,

it has to mean we’re to be as one.


It lets me believe I’ve won.

Regardless of the right or wrong.

Maybe I’m crazily undiscovered by you.

~

❤ Mitch

My Sweet Security

Choke on the self-ordained salvation.

Crawling back to ache out of devotion;

a desire to dismantlement in servitude to greater wholes

as this hole uncovers new unexplored lows.

Maintain steady gaze contact to forward motion.

No mimicry; no glancing at another’s paper.

Keep those hands idly sitting by.


The scratch of a knock may not have been there at all,

or the voices on the other side of the locked door.

Claws against rotted wood bid their time.

The confused stoic has their stance in proposed defiance

to forget the state of limbs rendered petrified by circumstance.

Bent on a reliance to brush away rushing quakes,

forget to forgive the failures of history’s conditioning.


Safe and well;

we’ve got you tucked inside this cell.

Safe and well;

We know you’ll never tell.

safe and well;

Make the bed quietly now.

until then

when you’ll spiral out of head.


Engineered purposelessly by arbitrary faults.

Now thusly are consumed every part never of you.

A decade of chewing force-fed falsehoods

leads one to be what they’ve never chosen to feed on.


Imagery of reality is immaterial;

sleight of hand expands the ounces an enemy eye criticizes.

Interaction directs its objective to cyclical deprecation

and ever further analysis of the omnipresent wrongs.


Beautiful is the pain of induced introspection:

To never return home sober; devoid of words to say.

Stumbling about the block when drugged under pity.

The genuine are all snakes dolled up in suits and dresses.

Diving headfirst into the pit is depression’s favorite coin flip;

here emerges broken when battered beyond its bounds,

bitten from head to toe until indistinguishable mass.

Here is where experience is said to come;

Excuse the harm as deserved.

Excuse the scars as earned.


You’ll see more to condemn regardless of the actual.

Too often is it misunderstood;

the certainty was never able to unseat belief,

for belief is deeply rooted and rigid versus truth.


Stay safe and well;

we see every time you fell.

Stay safe and well;

we gave these problems for yourself.

Stay safe and well;

tuck into the privacy of your hell.

Until when

you’ll spiral towards the end.

As was predicted.

As we all saw.

As we all knew.

~

❤ Mitch

Model Citizen Living in a Model Town

Here comes the fall down.

Lower the body finds itself,

ever further than prior reaches,

in ceaseless descension to bottommost echelons.


A decline to rockier bases,

fistfuls of gravel for fruitless climbing to discover an edge.

Disheveled surfaces reduced to window dressing.

Sharp intonations of agony at the behest of jagged crevices

are the cushions at the end of a day’s struggle towards the dawn’s glimmer.

Wounds proceed unreconciled,

but a facet of reality of regions beneath,

unable to be noticed as more than a breath’s absent purpose.


Braced for the cyclical tumble wrapped in self-pity,

post-it note therapy,

ugly coping weapons to pave over discard,

the burn of asphalt solutions an unclean reunion at trauma’s doorstep.


Awake in awareness of a faltering glow.

Depleting sustenance births serrated ideas

sliding hacksaws along a troubled staircase winding wherever else,

never attainting anywhere else;

a regression to starts that never truly begin,

and endings accelerate to their rehearsed consequences.


Serrated ideas impose a warforged hold,

prowling the lanes of asphalt solutions,

shuttering infrastructure that desperately cloaks shattered frames,

stores emptied of reserves in a cry for rationing,

all the brightness cascading to a familiar background bereft of aspiration.


It concludes to commence again.

In this, it is a failure of being.

It is an acceptance of the mediocrity of normalcy.

Off to experience sunsets in negative;

A failure to live.

~

( Mitch ❤ )