Evidently, I haven’t really been using WordPress much for the majority of May. A lot of this deals directly with how I began with month; I was in a state of reflection where it seemed as though the blog had hit a brick wall in terms of growth, and there didn’t seem to be a good explanation as to way. It was very demoralizing to watch the activity fall without really knowing what was behind it, and I felt powerless to recover past statistics. It appeared at the time to be a waste of my effort to try and invest effort into something that was collapsing arbitrarily. I still do attempt to update things here despite my cynicism, but the entire experience was very jarring. I hate to complain so much, but the whole situation was entirely confusing and upsetting to witness.
However, my reservations over this website pale in comparison to the other large endeavor now swallowing up my time: job searching. With college in the rearview mirror, I now have to seek out some kind of employment opportunity to assist in moving on with my life. This process is pretty difficult, takes substantial concentration, and may take a long spell of time. Hopefully it isn’t so arduous that I’m stuck without a position for months, but I’m prepared for whatever potential outcomes arrive.
In addition to the above, my Instagram account seemed to catch fire out of nowhere. It could quite possibly follow the same trend as this website where it’s a ‘boom & bust’ phenomenon, but I’m currently trying to ride the high and gain further ground. Because of this, I have been spending a lot more energy focusing on that aspect of my artistic projects. The emphasis on this website has lessened in response, as well as the KoFi account, which I think is safe to set aside as a failure; the current outlook is not a favorable one.
I will continue to post here, but the frequency may continue to decrease depending upon how other things pan out. I suppose the whole point of this ramble is to assure whoever reads that I am alive, writing, and keeping busy, but I’m not necessarily here as often anymore. It just doesn’t seem as worth it compared to other things I have going on. I’m aware I’m repeating myself at this point, so it’s probably good to cut things off for the night! Hope you all are doing well, sorry about my moodiness, and catch y’all on the flipside.
( ❤ Mitch)