… for a drop of blood

“… for a drop of blood”

Sourness is brilliance misunderstood;

or so it seems when the fantastical is robbed of the magical,

supplanted with wayward, youthful idealism.

Broken backs over the coffee table

are the reminders of an affectionate touch,

like a bull’s dedicated horns piercing surgically through the abdomen.


I’ll tattoo these if the scars start to fade,

tracing leaked fluid on pages as cherished mementos,

shedding weight by the ounces of blood cried for loss.

Gloss over in reds and purples to cloak the diminished sum.

Tally up to win when victory is a love letter’s fantasy.

The irrational rationalizes come the invasion of isolation.


Wasn’t it good when everything was good?

Rosey eyes paint flowering depictions of bitter pictures.

Weren’t we perfect when it clicked out of shape;

a frame of scattered objects jagged enough to ever break?


And I held your tongue at the tip of my teeth.

Do we dare to speak and reveal what passion hides?

An arm roughly revolved behind in a gesture of control,

so willingly bent to be at the knee of the beloved opponent.


A voiceless plea cries out somewhere subdued in shallow motions,

stuck between the nonexistent space crafted by colliding motives.

Survival of the most ill fitted to survive

as guaranteed by our mutually conflicting alibies:

The feast is the sustenance on which we preserve

and for which we can justify a lack of loneliness inside

despite the moments when the pangs surge into consciousness

when the onset of realization announces its advance.


Another ride too close to the sun’s arms

while failing to stitch up the singes of relief,

bursting out in sighs that confuse content with conquest.


Placed in front of the promise of voyages to the uncharted,

surrounded by the unrelenting gray that intrudes by the day,

I’d go to hold your tongue at the tip of my teeth

and swallow back the words I actually want to say.

It’s easy enough to lose count of my shattered bones.

One more cracked on the table can’t hurt after all.

~

❤ Mitch

You Blinked, and We Miss It

How and when is immaterial.

The infinitesimal permeates in sleep

when eyes remain open but far from waking,

a vision in slumber wed to transcripts

as rain gently strokes the surface;

the blurred becomes ever more obscured in time’s marching.

Yet the music pounds in eardrums,

supplanting static when silence abounds.


Stray glances burn deep into my desire to disappear from modernity,

examining the smiles I learned to treasure by the time they began to crumble.

This car is destined to halt somewhere.

There are boundaries to where thought can persevere,

locked into the restraints of human fallacy and the irony of affection.


If I held a hand up then to speak;

to infuse into the reality of decomposition,

whether memory would hold dear or falter is a question unanswered,

the only hints towards understanding embodied in the photos never taken.


Swallowed by impressions,

the color evacuating from the light,

what’s left to behold is an abandoned canvas,

the melted ichor of youthful imagery the fuel hindsight acquires.


Drawn up on the blankness is everything to nothingness;

a monument to the mobile immobile,

injecting theatrics to the unmovable past that rejects all advances,

though ever so inviting in the possibilities ever unexplored.

I can paint a road for which the memory can follow.


Departed from the current is where I am found,

chasing down meadows of bright flowers blooming endlessly

as if the sun held the moon in a stranglehold,

suffocating the dark from all edges of this condition of being.


It will never come to reason that the occurred cannot occur again.

Eraser stains only cause the dust of mistakes to resonate,

the murky fringes expanded across the page.

All that I could be then is what I can never meet.


Concentrated solely on the temporal archaic,

I stay asleep with eyes open wide,

willingly unaware I inhabit decayed landscapes,

shaking hands with the friends I wished never left.

~

❤ Mitch

Oh No, Daylight

“Oh No, Daylight”

It could have been there

between the cracks of conscious and unconscious breath.

Somewhere traded in the lips of ghosts,

I’ve traversed a bridge to link wayward spirits.

For a moment in the drama behind closed eyes,

I dress a stranger in vibrant colors

and swallow the rainbow to sustain.


It could have happened out there,

a street passing Infinitesimal to our selfish selves.

Stares only grazed skin’s surface,

the mind never truly knowing its neighbors.

Yet for seconds ephemeral in the bright of the dark,

tangled nothings shed cloth

and drink in the passion to sustain.


A question lingers unsaid

as the cracks in the blinds expose the film.

In the shine of day,

I swear I saw you there

caught walking in the halls.


A thought invades in haste

when transient is seen for what it is,

even when there’s a knock

that I swear was real.


Would you stay or would you drift?

Would you share this fountain

passed back and forth

to sustain?


It could have been there

as she exits from an ear to its opposite.

It could have been there

once the mirage bleeds into desert sands.


Understood in quiet, morning hours,

I comprehend the stranger made confidant in a fleeting touch,

gently caressing the elegance of the unfamiliar.

Is it out of my hands to pull down the allure from the unreal?


Perhaps it is best to forget the fabricated.

Wounded heads speak in screams when isolated to bed.

If only I was able to say goodbye.

~

❤ Mitch

Contemporary Grief

Gray weather reports are out of man’s hand.

The winds shift at an unknown beck and call.

Terror may endeavor to swallow whole,

as too often are we found in the sorrow of others

and the fatigue of attrition wars.


Led by fable to believe one held the world,

one swung the strings,

one dictated the direction of things.

Led by history’s choreography in archaic tongues

to support a roof in flames with two wavering arms,

burns categorized as the earnings of perserverance.

The dust of ground teeth be saved in caskets,

tied up along the windowsill:

The ultimate finality of our diminishing sum.


Here then does the precipice loom between ascension’s descension,

claimed a fool’s selfish dagger misguided,

yet stood in opposition is the antidote to scorch marks;

allowing a roof to realize its cave-in scheme

and release from the burden of upholding the improbable.

In this are we untimely aligned in contemporary grief,

contemplating in consequence to the frailty of folding hearts,

unfulfilled by drained demand,

told to sit still in nervous episodes;

to shove limbs into pockets and contain a raging storm.


Shrouded in conventional mystery,

tiny teeth tombs total the toll of mutual ignorance

afforded to those without soot on their shoes,

clung to by those sitting still for fear of a push away.


The weight is feared,

so none dare to share anguish,

seeing necessity for comprehension as an unbalanced trade

where pain only transfers, merging into one.

The question is illusive,

so none dare attempt to offer an answer,

concealing instead in empty, smiling words and bootstraps.


In this are we secured unlovingly in contemporary grief,

taught to bear troubles in seclusion,

though unavoidably colliding headfirst with the reality of breakdown,

flailing in the changing seasons,

unexpectedly altered in the throes of modern life.


Alone as determined by circumstance,

the weather of the day is seen as a personal fault,

and it is carried alone,

out of sight,

until eroded in attrition wars,

untimely.

~

Mitch ❤

Medicated Normalcy

Exodus of speech to fill the lungs.

Trap all troubles in capsules.

Reveal all down a roaring barrel’s call.


In reflection are we all found,

dispensing tragedy around as if surprised

when silence is prescribed in turning backs and shying eyes.


From the torrents washing above,

cracks will be revealed,

and cracks will be defined as weakness of the mind.


Immersed in clay,

dive below the realization and defy recognition.

Husks are hollowed out for all of us to witness.

Husks are hollowed out for all of us to conceal.


In reflection are we all found,

describing trauma that surrounds fortress walls

communicated as resolve;

stoic, unwavering, imperfect in false perfection.


To wake up and breathe is not a eulogy.

It is the bravery that compels towards unknown lines.

Rising to walk is not preordained defeat.

It is the courage to know the chasing drama knives

and to willingly travel unphased by the scars

to recover from what was never deserved.

Never a fault of yours to find yourself broken at times.


Low as it comes to be,

this is temporary reality.

Believe in the comfort of survival.

Believe in the person that strives without flinching,

sheds the strain of memories in absence of shame,

deconstructing the proclaimed resolve that has made all quiet.


Do not be caught in the prescribed silence.

There is value in life.

There is value in who you are.

There is value in what will become.

There is value in the march onward.

~

❤ Mitch

Buried, Unburied

Here comes the familiar shadow,

on schedule for temporary malfunctions.

Stepping off the dock with purpose in relaxed steps;

a rehearsed motion to proceed into deconstruction.

The same greeting at the doorstep.

ushered in to sit and stare off into the back of my skull,

laser-like precision undermining defenses,

leaking out the lies of positive mindsets

drying on stained linoleum next to yeast lakes and small mistakes.


Shake hands to reach agreement;

let the nadirs inhabit the page again.

Swipe a pen left and right as a dance held by a string,

playing puppet master over trauma that dictates how it roves.


It’s all too common to shatter routine’s grip.

A choking grasp is too frequent to voice objection,

but a lover’s hug that shows meaning

and the reasoning behind the screaming quiet of the room.


Open up for the familiar shadow.

Notebooks strewn across without weight to bear it down,

be it metaphor or literal or caught between,

convinced of the veracity of harm when asked for,

but unsure why it’s requested beside an opportunity to thrive;

to catch the spotlight upon the crude language of my wrists,

placing all hope onto a fragile medium

where slow suffocation is a destiny

and I’m losing the argument against it.


Welcome the familiar shadow as it arrives.

Patchwork prose is enough to clog the blood.

Unleash the limitations and the reoccurring thoughts will leech.

Cross fingers and believe it leads to peace.

~

❤ Mitch

Rerepeating Repeating Repetition

Another story.

Another wound.

Another tale to tell deep into 4 a.m.,

drunk off

sleepless nights

laboring to pull down reservations.


And it’s all to be said in the loving timbres of support

as wandering hands tangle up thoughtless limbs,

terraforming through passion to avoid paranoia’s suspicion

where a mattress is a makeshift cage.

Holding onto the bars, wavering between worlds;

a swan’s descent from an edge to a mangled mess,

or a prisoner’s acceptance of unfaltering circumstance.


Pinned down.

Chained unto.

Call it inspiration in broken bottle prose.

Subdued to

restless days

marching in the mire of melancholy.


Empty the dark into a collection of ink droplets

and weave lines into lies for self-medication

when remedies and white coats trade lies for a prize.

A reward for isolation’s motivation

by severing all ties deemed useless,

preparing for future ruins on distant maps

where perserverance ends in jagged shipwreck shores.


Sleep and slip away.

Rise to write the same.

Sleep and see no different.

Rise to write until the writing is off the walls,

wiped bare as emergency blares.


Tune out the noise to inherit depression’s drama.

Tune out the noise to greet the conclusion of a cliff’s bottom.

~

❤ Mitch

Spiral! Spiral! Spiral!

I’m an explorer for what I want to know,

yet perceiving only wrongs in glances and sentences.

Here sat at an impasse between your realities

as I choose demise between falsehood and aching truth.


I rely on you to say

If there’s explanation required behind masks

or the expressions are exactly the whole of their parts.

I’ll be sapped at command in waiting rooms,

transferred to accompany your loving indecision.


Waved hands beckon to everywhere nonspecific.

I long to uncover the somewhere I find in you

when I swear a shine hits a gaze a certain way,

sparse enough evidence to hold steady the art of fantasy.


I rely on you to say

if this conversation tone is steps closer to rest,

or the sound of an abating echo discovering oblivion.

Maimed in self-throes in tangled motivations,

I’ve but traces to affection buried in dried blood,

writing judgement across for what is and what is not,

neither seen in an eye beyond mine.


The butcher’s hand is my own device

to excavate the best as if to stave off a flooding ship,

laying to the floor until a skeleton remains.


I rely on you to say

if this is the beauty I’m meant to portray

or if I wasn’t even noticed in flesh or otherwise,

proposing prose to the concept of you,

never attainting the attention of the person,

but the act ahead of actuality.


To make a judgement call off of emptiness,

I’ll improvise our interactions.

The nothingness is enough to savor me

as it drains me further still.

~

❤ Mitch